Sunday, November 29, 2009


Emotions are I guess just a sign of living. You are breathing, you have things in your life that happen that is exciting, bring sorry or joy, sadness, calm moments, fearful moments. Emotions sometimes comes from the heart, but also from the head. There are things that can bring on an emotion and then right out of the blue, something may or not happen, and the emotion is changed.

Sometimes when this happens I don't know how to handle things. I don't know what to say, I don't know what to feel. The emotions are outpouring and sometimes explosive. You know that you need to tell someone, and it's easier to tell those who you do not think will judge you. Sometimes you wonder if you should say anything at all, after all do they really need to know?

There are many many changes going on in my life and a lot of different emotions happening- and not just one emotion at a time. That does not help with co-dependant people - people who depend on how others will react if and when they learn of specific things.

There are times that emotions take over and you are all happy, sad, feel like crying, feel like screaming, feel like asking "what the hell was I thinking???!!"

I need those emotions to calm down to think. I need to be able to work through those emotions to make the best possible choices. I also need to understand that what's done is done and if things have come to what and where they are there is a reason.

I believe I need to just remember ONE DAY, one FEELING, one thing at a time. Life has it's ups and downs and I need to go with life. If it were always like an eagle soaring through the clouds, then how would one learn how to live? How would that eagle be able to soar when he is tired and needs to land.

I am rambling, and I know it's been a while since I have posted, don't know if anyone will understand any of this, but it's good to get it off the chest!